Tuesday, May 31, 2016

An Open Letter To: Stress and Anxiety

Dear Stress and Anxiety,

Hello again old friend, it's so nice to see you again. Not really, but we can pretend to be friends.
Thank you for following me everywhere I go. For being present every time I open my mouth, over every word I say, and over every night that I try to sleep through. Thank you for overloading me with pointless worries, and for being... In short my shadow. 
Thank you for crushing my dreams. That's been fun. 
Thank you for confusing me, and for making me cry at random, importune times. 
Thank you for making me afraid of tomorrow's activities. 
Thank you for making my body ache with fear. 
Not really. 
But that is what you do to me. You drown me in your waves. You make it hard for be to breathe even when I know what I want to do. 
But you make me feel like I'm worthless, and that my dreams don't have a point. You make me wonder what I'm going to do with the rest of my life, even though in my heart I know beyond a shadow of a doubt what I'm going to do. 
This letter is a good bye. This letter is a venomous stand. It's me standing on the Solid Rock of Jesus, and rebuking you by His blood. 
Stress and anxiety, you are not who I am. You have been confined to a hole of destruction, you just think you own me. 
I'm not going to lie, you've done a good job of tricking me into think you where more then you where. 
But my King has overcome you. 
He is put you into a lake of never ending fire. 
You have no claim over my life. 
I am not anxiety. 
I am forgiven and free by the blood, grace and power of my King Jesus Christ. 
I am free to dream. 
I am free chase the calling my King has placed on my heart. 
And dear stress, I'm not going to let you dictate my pursuit of my dreams. 
I'm not going to let you put chains on my heart. I'm not going to let you control my brain whilst I study for my dreams. 
Because contrary to what you have lead me to believe, I am smart. I can get a good grade on this test. 
Contrary to what you have led me to believe, I am loved. 
Contrary to what you have led me to believe, my God is sovereign over every inch of my life. 
Not you. 
Never you. 
My King is named Victory. He has overcome the grave. 
My King has been proclaimed sovereign. All of creation echoes that truth. 
You, are nothing. 
Dear anxiety, you are nothing in the eyes of my Creator. 
You may leave whenever you please. Don't let the door hit you on the way out. 
"I said, "I am about to fall," but Lord, your love kept me safe. I was very worried, but you have comforted me and made me happy." ~Psalm 95:18-19 

~Rachel Joy 

Monday, May 2, 2016

An Open Letter to: Change


Dear Change,
I guess I'll start by saying hello. Yes, spellcheck changed that to yellow the first time. 
That's the way life goes some times I guess. 

How are you? Different I gather. 
Different can be good I guess, I just wasn't expecting you to look... Just... Like that. I guess. I guess in my head, you would kind of just be the same, just older. But no. It's... A little more then older. Not in a bad way but... I'm just going to shut up.   

How am I doing? Well... Growing up has been a struggle. I'm working a lot now, which has been fun. (No, I'm not being sarcastic.) I still ask my mom to make my Doctors appointments. I have a cactus now. She's a good friend. I also bought a jar of Nutella yesterday. So that was fantastic. 

You know, things changing actually bothers me a lot. I like change when it's my idea, under my direction and from my lead. 

But that's hard to admit. Its hard to say "it is well" because sometimes it's not. It hurts. A lot actually. 

I'm happy for you. You have new friends, a new life. We still share our music tastes I see, so that's fun. Thanks for the text about Spencer Kane joining Anthem Lights. Haha, look up "Teenage Girl has Fangirl Attack and Dies at Work" on YouTube sometime. That's me. 

But dear change? I'm not writing you a letter to remind you of all the good times we had, or to tell you about my life. I'm writing you to tell you that I'm through with you. 

I'm done letting fear of you run my life. I'm done letting you control my heart. Something else that has changed is my relationship with God. I'm letting him rule over my life. 

I don't want you to have a bit of foothold over my life. I'm ready to live wholehearted for the One who Died for me. 

Because in Him, there is victory. In you there is just fear, chains and rejection, and I'm.... Kinda just done with that.  

With the help of Jesus Christ, I'm not going to let you shackle me anymore. 
Sure, you'll probably still be around, (as you always had that shadow tendency. Kind of annoying if you ask me.) but you're not in charge. 

When I think about college, friendships, the future in general, fear of you won't be part of my thoughts.  

You are nothing more then the boogy-man who lived under my bed. 

Not real. 
So this is good bye.
I know I'll still see you again, because you tend to travel with growing up, but consider us no longer an "us." 

I'm looking through the eyes of the one who has planned my future. The one who holds the pen to my life, and you are cast out. 

*Waves sarcastically,*
~Rachel 

PS: Orange is not your color. 

Monday, March 28, 2016

How to Deal with Questions You Don't want to Answer.

Hello everyone!

So the past couple weeks I've found myself living life with a super stylish, stinking adorable wrist brace.

I'm kidding. It's ugly, clunky and a general pain.

(Also, typing hurts a lot so please don't judge if this is super short.)

It turns out I did not sprain it like I originally thought but instead I have this thing called Carpal Tunnel.

Basically a nerve in my wrist is pinched and it hurts a lot and my fingers go numb easily.

The thing is, Carpal Tunnel is really boring.
Like, painfully boring.
In a word, lameeeee.

So when people ask "hey, why are you in a super clunky wrist brace that doesn't really match anything you own." I'm not going to answer "oh, Carpal Tunnel" because that's lame!!

So I have a couple different answers that I want to share in case you happen to be in a situation that has an equally lame answer.

"Oh." *cough uncomfortably* "Wombat incident."

This by far has been my favourite answer.
You have to understand that a lot of people don't know what a Wombat is, so in order to use this answer you have to know that a "wombat is a like a mix between a Kangaroo and a Koala Bear."

Then, if you are asked "Where did you meet one of those?"  The appropriate answer is, "Oh, I was walking in the woods behind my house the other night and because it was dark, I couldn't see it when it attacked me."

This works for anything. Do you have a broken foot that doesn't have an interesting story? Wombat Incident. Concussion? Wombat incident.

And the answers people give you are hilarious! I had a guy ask me with a perfectly straight face "are you sure it wasn't a groundhog?"

I cried laughing! it was beautiful ya'll!

If you don't feel comfortable saying "Wombat incident," try some other random animal. I will suggest not using "Narwhal Incident." (Ask in the comments if you want that story. It's good.)

2. "Haha, you think this is bad? You should see the other guy."

Part of why this works is I am not really a fighter in general. Like, I work at a coffee shop, do media for a couple platforms and am just a geek.

So seeing a girl say "You should see the other guy" who is wearing pink lipstick and rosebud earrings.... Makes people laugh pretty hard.

And then you don't have to tell your lame story.

3. Be serious, but have it be something horrible.

"Oh. It was a house fire." *Sniffle,* "I was trying to rescue my dog and the burning timbers from the roof fell on my wrist." *Covers face in tissues whilst crying.*

4. Tell the total truth.

This is an option. You can do this. It's boring. But feel free to do it. In fact, you should use this option. The truth is always the best answer. Do this.

That's all I have for today! Please feel free to let me know how you guys deal with annoying questions that you don't want to answer.

~Rachel Joy

Sunday, March 20, 2016

The Beauty of My King


                                             

Something that I've been thinking a lot about is the beauty of the journey God has placed before us. 

How every moment has a purpose. 
And every word that we have spoken has been already written by a powerful pen. 

Every moment has been placed by my sovereign King. 

As many of you may know, I'm a sunset geek. I love chasing the sunsets and watching as God paints the earth with beautiful colours and watching the shadows fall. I love watching the stars poke out of the inky blackness of night. 

As I found myself sitting in the window seat watching the stars come out after the sunrise faded away, I found myself thinking about the beauty of our King. 

About how powerful he is, and how mighty he is. 

I mean, I've sat through a lot of sunsets, and I've been overwhelmed by Gods power before, but yesterday evening, it was different. 

It was sitting there realizing how mighty God is to ordain the world and put it to order. How beautiful he is to write out the sum of our journey and love us anyway. 

It's nothing less then beautiful. 

That is the beauty of our king! 
He not only makes life, he makes life perfect and beautiful. 
He makes it priceless. 

He makes my soul sing 
Sing his praise. 
He makes my soul dance,
Dance because of all that he is. 

The beauty of the King is that no matter how crazy life gets, he's going to be keeping his hand on you and giving you strength. 
The beauty of my King is that he forgives even when I don't think I'm worth it. 
The beauty of my King is that no matter what happens, he's going to love me with a never ending love. 

The beauty of My King is that He knows what plans for me, and all His plans are perfect. 

That is the beauty of the King we celebrate! 
THAT is the beauty of my King! That he not only knows what he's doing, but he also loved me so much he died for my sins. 

And that is the most beautiful truth. 



Thursday, February 25, 2016

Pressed Down



Weary. 
My eyes are heavy, 
My heart is tired. 
I have been pressed down. 

I've reached the max,
Everything in me is done, 
I'm tired. 
There is nothing left in me. 

My eyes are vacant. 
My heart is pained. 
Waking up, 
That's impossible. 

But as weary as I am, 
As tired as my heart may be... 
I am completely victorious. 
I am not destroyed. 

My steps may falter, 
But my heart seeks Your face. 
I am seeking your sanctuary, 
For you are my rest Lord Jesus. 

I was lost, but not forsaken. 
Weary but not forgotten. 
Pressed down but not overcome. 
Completely victorious. 

Rachel Joy 

Wednesday, February 3, 2016

RemindME

   Sometimes I forget things. 
I'm a pretty busy person, and that's what I blame a lot of things. 

One of the things that I forget is that I'm not invincible. 
I forget the things that I should do, and one of those things is be human. 

Lord, wake me up. 
Remind me of the things that I need. 

Remind me to find rest in you. 
Remind me that you are wholly God. 

So often I forget oh Lord. 
I forget about the grace that you pour out. 

I forget to worship you in everything that I do,
I don't want to live like that. 

Bring back my memory, 
And breathe into me. 

Sunday, January 31, 2016

DearYOU

                                    

Dear you, 
I see you crying. 
Don't lie, those are tears. 
but it's ok. 

The thing about tears is they are real. 
They can't be faked. 
When you cry, that's what you are really feeling.
It's ok to cry.

I know how you feel. 
I've been there too. 
Lost, tired, lonely. 
Like life could never be the same. 

It can't. 
The past is behind you. 
But now.. Now is here. 
Now. 

The tears of now. 
The wondering of now. 
The emotion of now. 
Now in it's entirety is happening. 

Dear you, 
Don't worry. 
It will all work out. 
Trust in Him. 

I know it sounds Clique. 
How five letters can change a world. 
How "Trust" can turn you upside down. 
I've been there too. 

Keep pressing in my Friend. 
Keep holding on. 
Keep your head up. 
Keep the faith. 

He is holding out his hand. 
dear friend, 
He is holding you so close. 
Speaking words of love. 

~Rachel Joy 
 



Thursday, January 28, 2016

to the girl in the mirror...


                                          


I walked up and looked her straight in her hazel brown eyes. They looked fearful, not at all confident like the girl she wanted to be. 

Her clothing was sharply contrasting. Blacks, greys  and whites. 

She was tall, thin and had long blonde hair. 

She looked back at me. Tired, uncomfortable and fearful. She looked tired. Like the one place she wanted to be was miles away. She looked lonely. Like the people she so longed to be with where in a place she might never go back too. 

With that observation, I opened my mouth and started to scolded her. "You're not brave, strong, or anything like who people want you to be. You're just annoying, loud, random, ugly and stupid.  You're not really anything. You're not beautiful, you're not talented and you aren't anything special. You're nothing more then a  living flop." 

As I spat out that last syllable, I stepped away from the mirror. 

Not words I had been called. 
No, people called me beautiful, talented, gifted even. 

But the names I called her... Ruthless at best. 

I don't think she's happy with where she is at this juncture. She wants to be something else. She wants to be like the Disney princesses and heroic women she's read so much about. 

The girl in the mirror needs to know something. That she's beautiful. Not because I say so, but because one greater then her created her so. 

The girl in the mirror needs to know that she's a priceless treasure. Not just because I say so, but because the one who died for her says so. 

The girl who is looking back at you from the mirror needs to know that she's worth more then what she thinks she is. That her worth doesn't come from a size on the back of her jeans or from her relationship status on Facebook. 

Her worth comes from a God who has cattle on a thousand hills and streets made of gold. 

Lastly, that girl in the mirror needs to know that she's loved. Loved and cherished by the One who loved her so much that He laid down his life for her. Loved by the one who paints the sunrise and loved by the one who has her future planned. 

As I told her those things, her hazel eyes filled with tears. 
Her brain fought the truths that had been given to her. 

The girl in your mirror might not like the names you call her. 
Let her know she's beautiful and loved. Not because I say so but because the one who formed her out of the dust made her so. 

In Christ Alone,
Rachel Joy

Sunday, January 24, 2016

LookingUP

    
         

My world is a beautiful thing. 
It all fits in boxes, 
Tidy squares, lined up next to each other. 
When I don't want to deal with it, I can just put it away.

My world fits in my pocket. 
I plug it in at night.
It's the way I communicate. 
My world is perfect. 

I travel every day. 
To places I wish I could be. 
To talk to people I wish I could talk to, 
To streets I wish I could be roaming. 

All from the comfort of my own room. 
Never having to go outside. 
I don't have to move! 
Just my thumbs and fingertips. 

The real world is so grey. 
It's a living void. 
I don't like it here. 
But put filters over it, and it's my dream world. 

Meme's, GIF's, Emoji's,
Jokes, people I wish I could see irl, 
Why would I look out at the grey...
Today I did. 

Today I looked up. 
I walked through a store. 
Seeing all the people... 
Necks down, fingers full. 

The real world... It's not as grey as news says it is. 
Not as dramatic. 
Not as crazy. 
And yet... 

So many people...
So distracted... 
I think that's why we keep our heads down. 
That's why we make posts about changing the world. 

Because by posting and hashtaging it seems like we're doing something. 
By liking a page we are changing the world, 
By venting on line, it's like we're doing something. 
When really, we're just scrolling. 

It distracts us from doing. 
It hinders us from knowing real people. 
People who might be hurting. 
People who need us to be the hands of love. 

It keeps us from seeing. 
Because if we see we have to do. 
And that's overwhelming. 
So what fun is that? 

Behind these little boxes, 
We can look busy. 
When really we're not. 
We can avoid conflict. 

As I thought those things... 
Just standing... 
Standing in a grey world...
Looking at all the robots... 

Instead of changing anything...
Doing things is to overwhelming. 
I'd rather not change the world...
I'll just keep scrolling. 

Rachel Joy

Thursday, January 21, 2016

Types of People at a Coffee Shop: part one

Everyday I am privileged to talk and interact with the area that I'm currently living in. 

Teenagers come to the coffee shop after school, professors come in after giving lectures, grandparents come in to meet friends they met in Highschool, students come in before going to lectures and to do homework... it's basically a melting pot of all sorts of people. 

This being said... People are hilarious. 

As funny as people are, there are certain stereotypes that almost everyone fits in. 

The first stereotype is the "studying person." 

This person will post to the social media of choice: 






This person then proceeds to take a hundred million selfies. I know this because it's the same person who asks where a plug in for their phone is an hour after sitting down. 

They then proceed to make more faces at the camera. 
I think the goal is to take enough selfies to be able to post one every day for a year to make people think you are a regular. 

I think. Not sure, but that's the only reason I can think of, so I'm just going to go with it. 

The second kind of person is "That Lady." 

"That Lady" will come in and you will know what she's going to order just by looking at her. Her order will sound something like this: 

Lady: "Hello sugar!" 
Me: "Hello ma'am! What can I get for you?" 
Lady: "Well... Let me see... I know! I would like a Mocha, extra hot, all natural, half caf, large, cold brew, sugar free, iced, almond milk, breve, chai, extra shot, organic, extra small Americano,   to go." 



And you are like. "Woman, you just contradicted yourself a hundred times in that order. Where do I start with correcting you?" 

It's fun. Luckily, once you explain that "breve" means "half and half" and "almond milk" means "milk made with almonds" things normally sort themselves out. 

It's just a 5 minute heart attack that I'll never recover from. 
No big deal. 

The last kind that I'm going to be discussing is the, "grandparents group." These people are my all time favorites. 

They are the proud grandparents of 37 young'ens. They have the 'young'ens' as the wallpapers on their phones, and will show them to you without you having to ask. 

If you do something, it's the best thing ever, and you are adopted into their family. 
These grandparents meet up with other grandparents and talk about the 'young'ens'. 

My heart melts. 
Guys, you have no clue. 
It's so cute. 
When I'm 65 that's my goal. 
I want to be like that. 

There are other types of people. The football players, the clowns, the momma's with sweet little ones, the computer techs, the writers, and loads of others, but I'll save those for a further date. 

What are some stereotypes you've noticed concerning life in general? Let me know! 

In Christ Alone, 
Rachel Joy 

PS: I'm going to cut down the amount of times I post a week. Twice is way to stressful, so I'm going to say that I'm just going to post regularly on Fridays. There might be a poem randomly thrown in next week, but that depends on if I can remember what file I put it under. (Probably Microsoft Word 8392938473.) So yeah. There's that. 

PPS: I'm so sorry about not answering comments. I promise I read them all and laugh and love them all, just... Life ya'll. 


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